slow after held

like a slow drink
after a drink
held against rebellion
standing—leaning
against distance
where desire travels
apart from simplicity
involved within fixity, trembling
deep into nothing
a rhythm skips
a dreamy thing
sitting table
a stool abstracted
from physicality left
out and down led to out and down
something else outside the lightest touch
fiery vein of resonance
forgotten, forgotten, forgiven
in the end is that a hope or
an angry request with
without response
yet watching for that
long fuse to get shorter
to lessen—to fall over
a part totality launched like
a hit to the gut
a trite left over from
a half speech never delivered

I will not be unindulged